I Surrender..........

I give up!!!!!

After struggling with sleep for two hours or so, I can’t fight anymore. I don’t want to even try to sleep now.I give up.....Now-a-days sleep don't come to me easily.Just take me, because I give up.

You win, I lose.I am guilty. Punish me.
I am guilty of loving you. I am guilty of fighting it. I am guilty of suppressing.

I miss you... terribly.

It's tough to live with this feeling....and itz getting tougher day by day....hour by hour....moment by moment.


Words ache.....my fingers tremble and my mind is befuddled. Please put some sense into me...plz god!!!!

I keep on falling for the glitters in search of the gold. No matter how much I deny it, the truth is that you are the gold. This gold is right in front of me yet it is so far away. I can feel you; I cannot touch you....cannot hold you..... cannot embrace you..........and i cannot stop myself loving you.… and I don’t want to fight it anymore.I give up.

I look up to you for answers... for you have all the answers. You always had my answers. Iam asking you....Why me!!! why????


Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can pierce you; hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love....but....but i cannot stop loving you.....

It's The CHRISTMASSSSY FEELING !!!

Christmas is knocking the doors...and the season's still pathetic in Delhi...i thought temperature will drop considerably...itz mid-december ..damn it!

I wonder what Christmas means to all of us. Honestly, I mean, besides Jesus what else can we think .Ofcourse people have different personalities so comes different set of likings n dis likings.What do you think is the best part of Christmas?For me, it's not in going crazy shopping for friends and family… it's not really in decorating Christmas trees or cooking delicious food or entertaining guests..... It's in the coziness of season. It's in the happy faces. It's in the pretty bright colours...it's in the winter.I especially love singing carols during this time of the year… dancing to the tunes of old Christmas classics. All of those songs bringing back good memories… heart-warming memories.Remember “Driving Home for Christmas?” I used to listen this song almost every time I used to travel home after my odd sems.I have some of my happiest moments with Jingle Bells. Signing it with friends at the top of my voice sometimes sitting in the Cafe Coffee Day on JM Road at 2am.Holiday season brings so many goodies. I love the smiles I get from all over. The comforting touches. The smell of burning wood. The text messages and phone calls from friends around the country… I know there are Angels Among Us.…and then Christmas is about romancing. The cozy coffee dates.Sipping hot mocha and spreading hot cocoa on unusually big muffins.... The holding hands and kissing under the mistletoe… those endless late night phone calls. Signing “Let it be so cold!” ....sitting by the fire and comforting each other. and All I Want For Christmas Is You.Of course, this time of the year is about memories. Last Christmas I Gave You My Heart… Need I say more? :-). It also about renewing my faith on life....And for me - Love is Life...and Life is God. So that's my Christmas.So, people have a Jolly Merry Christmas Christmas!!