It's my off day today but iam unable to sleep.I have been working countinously like a machine for last 1 month without any breaks...Can you believe that ....Today's my off day but i am not able to sleep.I was awake through out the night.I am very tired but M not able to sleep or is it like i don't want to sleep.So i decided to actually get down from the bed and make some coffee and moroco for myself.I started my laptop and wondered what exactly is m thinkin.Few flashes of memoirs were actually buzzing me. I opened the balcony door and walla..itz raining..... Memoirs...Remembrances...raining..hmm...Interesting...I thought why not write something on blog. Blogging has always helped me.It has helped when remebrance and emotions try to choke me.Well i agree that i run fr
om emotions.But it's not like i have never felt any emotion. But sometimes you just cannot allow urself to become emotional...College is over and to be honest i was never so much attached to my college, but strangely, sometimes i miss it. Sometimes i think why can't we develop some technology which can erase memoirs from our mind.That makes me remember that Ben Affleck starrer flick called "Pay Check"...You know m most afraid of those remembrances and emotions that bring Ma mind and heart on a war front..I see a faceless face...well not exactly faceless....but i would like to refer it that way becoz it originates from my remebrances and emotions.Ther’s no definite description to it but I know that it’s there.And i never understand why this face comes in front of me everytime. A remembrance which has a strong emotion attached to it. It dwells my mind through out the day..through out the night...In work..... in dreams....almost all the times.I close my eyes and try to obliterate all my thoughts...all my worries and try to reach the furthest points of serenity. But allas i cannot escape this remembrance.It comes in flashes and makes me soo restless that its impossible for me to concentrate properly on my work.My heart enjoys it but my mind dislikes it..itz a war which occurs everytime..day and night.Though iam totally upset about continous pop up of these remembrances but i also love it..That sounds contradictory and strange but that's what happening to me...I try to obliterate it and everytime i think i have send it into grave but then i feel that it would be much more difficult for me to live without it...Sometimes life gives u options like .."Worse" and "Worst" and u r compelled to make a choice. Where will u go.. Ofcourse u will choose the "Worse".....There are few pieces of you which are hard to understand-even by you ,forget others. Imagine the situation when u are sure that ur friends and near-dear ones will not understand those strange entangled feelings. U have ur hands tied down by your own ethics and rules...and u decide to put your head on sacrifice altar ..u decide to suffer and go through the black cloud..By the time u will reach the end of the clouds u will be able to see a bigger picture.I don know wat u people felt or used to feel in these situations but i felt that i can convert these remembrances to my strength and inspiration.These are short remembrances but they are undoubtly strong.It can shake me from inside and it's not strange, everyone has got these type of remembrances...Parents..Brothers..sisters..Girlfriend...a small instance of love or hatred....it can be anything....anything u can possibly think of.Life's worse with these rembrances but life is worst without them.So why not extend the hand of friendship towards them.
om emotions.But it's not like i have never felt any emotion. But sometimes you just cannot allow urself to become emotional...College is over and to be honest i was never so much attached to my college, but strangely, sometimes i miss it. Sometimes i think why can't we develop some technology which can erase memoirs from our mind.That makes me remember that Ben Affleck starrer flick called "Pay Check"...You know m most afraid of those remembrances and emotions that bring Ma mind and heart on a war front..I see a faceless face...well not exactly faceless....but i would like to refer it that way becoz it originates from my remebrances and emotions.Ther’s no definite description to it but I know that it’s there.And i never understand why this face comes in front of me everytime. A remembrance which has a strong emotion attached to it. It dwells my mind through out the day..through out the night...In work..... in dreams....almost all the times.I close my eyes and try to obliterate all my thoughts...all my worries and try to reach the furthest points of serenity. But allas i cannot escape this remembrance.It comes in flashes and makes me soo restless that its impossible for me to concentrate properly on my work.My heart enjoys it but my mind dislikes it..itz a war which occurs everytime..day and night.Though iam totally upset about continous pop up of these remembrances but i also love it..That sounds contradictory and strange but that's what happening to me...I try to obliterate it and everytime i think i have send it into grave but then i feel that it would be much more difficult for me to live without it...Sometimes life gives u options like .."Worse" and "Worst" and u r compelled to make a choice. Where will u go.. Ofcourse u will choose the "Worse".....There are few pieces of you which are hard to understand-even by you ,forget others. Imagine the situation when u are sure that ur friends and near-dear ones will not understand those strange entangled feelings. U have ur hands tied down by your own ethics and rules...and u decide to put your head on sacrifice altar ..u decide to suffer and go through the black cloud..By the time u will reach the end of the clouds u will be able to see a bigger picture.I don know wat u people felt or used to feel in these situations but i felt that i can convert these remembrances to my strength and inspiration.These are short remembrances but they are undoubtly strong.It can shake me from inside and it's not strange, everyone has got these type of remembrances...Parents..Brothers..sisters..Girlfriend...a small instance of love or hatred....it can be anything....anything u can possibly think of.Life's worse with these rembrances but life is worst without them.So why not extend the hand of friendship towards them.
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